June 2011
2 posts
February 2011
1 post
January 2011
15 posts
“you’re not crazy, you’re brilliant. everyone around you is crazy and...”
– courtney
how to make a salad
i miss posting “recipes” here ….
so, in yet another hopeful attempt to try to take care of myself, i send these humble instructions —-
HOW TO MAKE A SALAD
step one - wake up in a confusing struggle of half consciousness at some early hour, brush teeth quickly and forcefully to avoid being late, rinse with mouth wash, smoke two half-cigarettes because you have been too...
“I meditate in the bath. The water needs to be very hot, so hot you can barely...”
– Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (via caramelladicotone)
December 2010
7 posts
i really do fear i've lost my soul, though.
i search for it as i do the ghosts
takecare101:
fuck the money, jump, jump!
climb into a pressure cooker and see what happens.
a little over the cost of getting a car towed twice or getting two cars towed at once, both of which ive done….. a little under the cost of having three car towing charges discussed in total, which has also already occurred.
it wasnt a disaster.
psychiatry cost like 300 something for 90 minutes, it...
fuck the money, jump, jump!
climb into a pressure cooker and see what happens.
a little over the cost of getting a car towed twice or getting two cars towed at once, both of which ive done….. a little under the cost of having three car towing charges discussed in total, which has also already occurred.
it wasnt a disaster.
psychiatry cost like 300 something for 90 minutes, it cost like...
November 2010
2 posts
don't bother reading this later, self. ...
I drink a beer to offset the nauseous twitch of adderal. I drink a beer because the motivation with too many directions offers me no real place to go to, nothing to achieve. I drink this beer for old time’s sake — I am in my parents home, I’m alone for now, up too late and yet — I’m not miserable. I drink this as a nod to the former incarnation of self which was...
October 2010
8 posts
<div align=”center”> <a href=”http://psychcentral.com/addquiz.htm”> <img src=”http://psychcentral.com/images/adhd_serious.gif” alt=”Serious ADHD Likely!” width=”200” height=”90” border=”0”></a></div>
who the fuckwould put this on their facebook or some shit?
it is 4 30 in the morning and i am fucking... →
Know that it is O.K. to do two things at once: carry on a conversation and knit, or take a shower and do your best thinking, or jog and plan a business meeting. Often people with ADHD need to be doing several things at once in order to get anything done at all.
Accept fear of things going well. Accept edginess when things are too easy, when there’s no conflict. Don’t gum things up just to make them more stimulating.
Be sure of the diagnosis. Make sure you’re working with a professional who really understands ADHD and has excluded related or similar conditions such as anxiety states, agitated depression, hyperthyroidism, manic-depressive illness, or obsessive-compulsive disorder.
plan to fix my life - composed while listening to...
attempt 1:
pregame-
have a plan (realistic) of what you need to / want to do the next day, including the times of plans & obligations
thats right i said make a fucking to do list before the day even starts.
go to bed a minimum of six hours before you need to be awake
aim to always be in bed before 2:30 regardless
game on -
wake up ONE HOUR before you need to leave the house; most...
August 2010
6 posts
paging my pisces -
the gardener is also a pisces. discovered this yesterday. he made some statements along the lines of “I AM NOT A PISCES” and then kind of angrily conceded that he hates astrology because he’s a *classic* pisces and gets annoyed that it’s so accurate. also claims that i cannot possibly be a pisces unless i am a secret pisces and hiding it well.
hmm.
past twelve months
first six months consisted of starvation.
pretty sure that something in my life had been toxic.
subconsciously tried to starve it out i guess.
didn’t eat. didn’t go places. sat numb.
second six months consisted of gluttony.
pretty sure i needed the nutrients and not sure from where.
impulsively decided to engulf anything i could touch.
out all the time. constant intake. ran...
July 2010
1 post
June 2010
1 post
“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you. You leave the same impression of...”
– Sylvia Plath (via sheissohigh) (via fuckyeahsylviaplath)
May 2010
6 posts
fuckyeahpoetry:
doomantia:
saturnrising:
I want to go moonwalking on it or under it I don’t care I just want to go moonwalking alone.
Women in their sixties don’t go to the moon, women in the cities don’t go out alone.
But I want O listen what I want is to be not afraid. Listen what I need is freedom.
Women in their sixties think about dying, women in the cities think about dying, all...
perseids:
We’re all gonna run out of road, soon enough and sure enough, and when we do, we’re going to want our loving wives (or husbands) right by our side. To comfort us and console us. To help us through the hard times. To try and kill us in our sleep. To hold the glass steady when our hands are shaking too hard. That’s most of the time, now. You know it. You know it. Christ, everyone...
April 2010
18 posts
lady you cant fool me, dont dissapear
takecare101:
you tumblin´still or no? i will try to txt you from internet
i’m here! i’m here! just tired of facebook. let’s skype soon! new place, new internet? how exciting!